Birth Without Fear

This past Saturday I started having some menstrual-type cramping, not off and on but constant, which can be a sign of pre-term labour.  I thought it could be dehydration causing painful Braxton-Hicks, but after 1.5L of water and lying down for an hour, nothing improved.  Thankfully it went away overnight but then it came back last night again for an hour.  I realized just how scared I was about this birth and I hated that feeling.  Then, an article popped up in my newsfeed on Facebook from someone I didn't even know.  This article addressed most of my fears and really helped me put things in perspective.  It was definitely a tender mercy.

I follow the "Birth Without Fear" facebook page which constantly has uplifting and inspiring stories of various women's birthing situations and struggles.  It's really helped me believe in myself.   After last night I decided that I need to have a constant reminder to not be afraid, and to trust that my body is capable of amazing things.  I really wanted to get this necklace, but it wasn't in our budget right now.

So I decided to check out Michael's to see if I could make my own for a decent price.  $17 later, this is what I was able to make.

It may seem silly to some that I'd need a physical reminder to not have fear, but for someone who doesn't wear jewelry often, having this around my neck reminds me every time I move and feel it against my skin.  I'm feeling more confident, I'm feeling better prepared, and I'm hoping that all goes well and that I can attempt a natural birth this time around, baby permitting.  #birthwithoutfear